From my last post, I mentioned about one impending post. Well, this is not the impending post that I refer to because believe it or not, this post that I’m writing now is something that I want to pour out before I go into full-blown madness. It’s hard to accept the fact that I want to get angry over incidents like this. Years of learning will be proven ineffective and this will be quite a disappointment to myself.
I guess recent talks with best friends from highschool is what giving rise to this ranting. I had to say secondary school is the place where you know your friends the best. It’s quite mysterious yet believable because its taking place all these whiles. No matter how stupid you act, these friends who have know you for years will response the same way as you did. Unfortunately, as we getting older and stepping into a different setting in the society, you can hardly find a magical moment which resemble to the above. It’s either people knowing you partially and pass the judgement based on these partial-knowing opinions or they straight away judge you from the first impression.
I always carry the principle that I won’t try to correct the judgement which is imparted by other people who barely know me. Trying so hard to convince people that you are not what they think of you is like trying to persuade the cow not to eat grass! I have been practising it quite well and here I am, in such weird situation. The truth is I slightly out-of-track right now. Hypocrite, am I? I get mad by these people who barely know me; who barely try to get to know who I am. I know it doesn’t make sense when you are angry over things that you know its hard to change, especially how people view you. I should give myself a pity laugh. I did not realise how these feelings taking over me. Now, I have to accept the fact it does affecting me and the way I am. I am not who I used to be (well, just in this area 😀 ).
Ranting ended. *relief*
I think I should really appreciate things that I have rather than trying so hard to change the view of other people, hoping that they will know me better. Changing to another new perspectives, I think I am quite lucky enough to meet such different people. To appreciate the flawless, there must be the presence of flaws.
Thank You 😀